Don't beat yourself up for not being able to realize who he really was from the beginning. At one time or another we all fall victim to an illusion. Stay true to who you are and what you truly want and things will fall into place.
I think every woman needs to learn to not need anyone and to always always be able to hold herself up alone. Nothing wrong with love of being with a man, just learn to keep your independence! Needing and wanting a man in your life is different.
"Sweetheart, the right guy will make you a priority. If you find yourself feeling like you're not good enough, it's because he's not good enough." - Steve Maraboli The right guy will make you his everything
You don't have a CLUE. And (sigh) I suppose it's probably better that way. But ---- God, if only I could whisper it to you - someplace other than my dreams. Like in a fog-drenched alley - up against a graffiti-stained brick wall.